I don't think I understood at the time what was happening, but I knew that he was my best friend and that he loved me and cared enough about me that I would say, okay, fine, not knowing the condensation. But the reality is we fast forward to about age 13 in my household. Environment has gotten more unpredictable, more uncertain, a whole lot less peace. And I would go to church in the middle of the week. I would go to youth group
Deborah Pardes
@DBPardes · 2:07
But, you know, rejecting oneself in this context is the scariest part. And no one has to do it for you. You're doing it yourself. So I take from this just another beautiful message of arriving. You're talking about this whole journey process. And I know that every journey journey has different milestones that are kind of arrivals. And one of the arrivals I celebrate so much is in my I guess my late just really started loving myself in such a beautiful, expansive way
I had family that weren't practicing or really believers at the time and started going, and I kind of got very, I guess, devout. And I think that I don't know if I've completely even now forgiven myself for being sucked into a community. And I still identify a spiritual and kind of Christian meaning, but do not practice in a church any longer, largely because of the rejection