Good evening, good morning, good afternoon, wherever you are. Thank you for tuning in. I don't even know where to start. The title is. Why not you? And I titled it that way because I feel like many women could relate to what I'm about to say. I'm 38 years old. I'm not married, I don't have any kids, and I desire to start a family
Zara Lisbon
@ZLisbon · 4:59
Yeah. Hey, yeah, I know how you feel. I've been there. I really have. Twice. I believe I was with someone who I really wanted to be with and wanted them to love me back the way I love them on the same level, you know, dollars. And it was always, like, for both of them, it was like, I'm not into commitment. I'm not ready for commitment, blah, blah, blah
We all have been there feeling inadequate, inferior, sad. Am I enough? I could tell you a quick story about something that made me feel inferior so real quick. I gained over £40 because the man that I thought that I loved didn't like skinny girls. But that brought on health problems. That brought on so many health problems for me. And I said, I don't even like the way my clothes fit. He doesn't care enough to accept me for who I am
London Reads
@Londonreads · 4:14
What if I decided not to work? Would he have put me in a position to have his child and to get married and so forth? Maybe I was just too independent for him. And it just made me feel really, like, awful. The most painful thing is what I thought about, which had me in tears hours ago, was the fact that I don't even know if I mentioned this, but I never been into the poly life ever
London Reads
@Londonreads · 3:17
The weight didn't really go anywhere, but I just it's gonna take a minute for me to heal from all of this. Like I expressed to the other girl before your voice message, I stated that I went ahead and blocked him. He said he loved me and all this stuff. He said he could hear the pain in my voice as well. And I just said, you know what? Just bye
Deborah Pardes
@DBPardes · 2:02
And I'm grateful that you're here being vulnerable with us and being open with us. And I'm just sending you all the love you give out back to you. So I hope this helps. And I know your way forward is going to feel a little lighter once you let go of the darkness of someone else's bad energy. So that's hopefully what will carry you through