Well, did you think about that? Everything needs a plan. Everything needs to be planned out. But executing a plan requires energy. I sat here thinking about my life and my future and what I can and cannot do at this current time I'm currently detoxing. I've been drinking quite a lot of alcohol. So my first step to detoxing was to stop drinking alcohol and being detoxed. Guess what I did last night? I picked up a beer and sipped it
Enfinit Evolushun
@Enfinit · 4:01
Will I let my chemical dependence conquer my mindset? No, because I'm going to apply my thought of having this detox and weigh the consequences against the reward. I have to detox because I have to get my body in shape for training. And if I don't do it, if I give up and say, hey, I can have just one beer, then I have a feeling of the feet. Even if it's not in my conscious mind, it will be in my subconscious mind
Dewuan .
@FryedOreo · 4:47
I didn't get to see my kids like I did every Wednesday evening. And instead she now is opting for me to see just my son, my blood son on the weekend. And there's a part of me that wants to go back and apologize. But I said nothing wrong. I only spoke the truth
Enfinit Evolushun
@Enfinit · 3:43
It was crazy. And he had that same type of struggle with his kids mom, but she was like so toxic, though. And then me going over there took a lot of humility because he wanted me to hang with them. And I was like, yeah, let me go over here and hang out with them. But I know it takes a level of humility to deal with being in that space, and I don't look forward to that
Deborah Pardes
@DBPardes · 2:14
So props for you, and you have a witness, and I honor it, and I know the relationship it is, and I think it's a lifelong journey to figure out what's good for me, what's going to reward my body, my soul, my mind, all that stuff. And alcohol is the lowest common denominator. We all understand it. But you got to fill that void with other things that give you that joy
What's up, Enfinit? It's good to hear your story. It's good to be able to be on this journey with you. It's yeah, life can be tricky at times and really test this can be challenging. So challenging. But I know that you're more than capable to to tackle this hill that you're on, and I know that you already are. Mentally is the first step. And you cross that bridge when you took one sip and said no
Eluchianna Olive
@Luchianna · 4:45
And I have learned that with the relationships I had in the past and new relationships I have in the future, I meet people where they are at. But when I come into the situation, I am myself, I am the complete package. And I accept people for who they are and what they stand for and we try to merge our self together as one to coexist