When he experienced his loss, you sort of say, how does he carry on with such a heavy heart? But he turns literally towards his next mission and he deals with it. But the loss informs his behavior. The loss informs how fortified he is to move forward and to seek vengeance. And I was thinking about what do we do in our lives when things feel impossible? Especially when they're kind of rooted in emotion, something you can't buy your way out of pain
I went right back to work. I had to show up a half an hour early, 45 minutes early, and be crying in the parking lot, just trying to pull it together. And then I got to the point where I was like, I ain't going to make it. And then it got to a point of surrender where I was like, you know what? If I'm going to die today, then I'm going to die
But there's been times when it's funny. When we were little, my mom would make us say our prayers, and I got older and I used to be like, why was this prayer so morbid? You know what I mean? If I should die before I wake, it kind of makes you not want to go to sleep, you know what I mean?