But there was a lot of things that I didn't say to my mom that I would have, but because there were private things. My child was a very private person and there were things about her and her identity and sexuality and stuff that she was exploring that made me make choices to protect her that my mom probably thought was to protect me and some severing and different things. But it wasn't my story to tell and she wasn't ready to address those things
I don't know that I've let my whole heart be completely vulnerable yet. And that's okay. I think that there are stages of those things and that's all different for us. But sometimes I tell myself these stories that are still about the last 1020 years. That's something that's changing
J.L. Beasley
@Her_Sisu · 4:59
I'm not saying that I want my mother to die, but it's just like I really have nothing in common with her. And so it was just a cycle of being in that circle. And then I had to forgive myself and move forward and say, okay, at the end of the day, this is the parent you have left. How do you distance yourself to do the work that you need to do for you, like you referenced