Jaded teacher mind dump…
What am I meant to take away from this experience? I recently started working and I don't know why I am where I am. I'm not sure why I got this job versus the other jobs. Why am I having the experiences I'm having? Why am I meeting students that I'm meeting? Why am I understood as I'm hearing? What is it that Im meant to pick out from this?
But if it causes you distress and if it causes you disharmony, then I think that that is worth listening more than what anybody else has to say, especially if what they have to say doesn't provide any guidance or support. So my advice would be to shift the focus on trying to learn to love your job, your current job, and instead focus it on trying to discover little things that bring you joy
This was absolutely beautifully said and I needed every single second of it. Funny enough, after I made the post, I never opened swell again. Which is silly of me because who wouldn't do that? What if somebody responds? But it's the end of the school term and it wasn't as bad as it looked or felt while going through it