I told him these things had been so long since I saw anyone in the possibility of being in my life for a long term and in an open way and around my family and around everything. I mean, this guy, I let him in when I'm dealing with investigators and I'm dealing with District Attorney or not district Attorney, with attorneys and judges and the RFA and Child Protective Services and all of this because of the fostering situation that I'm in. And I let him in