And the old me would not allow myself to feel those emotions because of the way I grew up and how my emotions were restricted. I would bottle up a lot of things and become numb and not really feel my emotions. And it was so chaotic because it was like you would shake a soda bottle and then it would burst. And that's very chaotic and an unhealthy way to feel your emotions. So those tears were rolling down in tears of gratitude, being grateful, just happiness, not sadness