I'm kind of doing the same thing with God. Aaronite. He blesses me in so many ways, but here I am always asking for more. Never quite satisfied. During that tearful drive, it dawned on me how much I needed to ask God for forgiveness. It's incredible how no matter what we do, God's always there. He is always there, ready to scoop us up and set us right again, just like I did for my son. Doesn't matter