Are you afraid to Die ?
It's a sucker punch every time. So we talk about dating, we talk about marriage, you know what I mean? And life as if we got forever and we don't. Most of the people I talk to, if they honest with themselves they realize that they're either right in the middle, which is not likely, or they got less days ahead of them than they have behind them
My son's fine. I came up with any excuse, you know what I mean? But I'm not going to take a spiritual escape. They ain't going to find me hanging up nowhere, because if you're going to get me, you got to get me. Ain't that easy. It's not that easy, trust me. So I'm not going to do the job for him
Bernard Harmon
@iambernard · 3:25
That was said one time that in order for a plant, a tree grows. It must first die to itself. It die. The seed is planted in the ground, and it dies, which bursts out the new life. When you come to reality to accept that death is there, then again, life begins. I've experienced a lot of death in my life. I've been times where I used to be afraid of dying. I've been suicidal
You know, you felt this way yesterday, it didn't happen, and the day before that didn't happen. But getting some acceptance with it and my own mortality is it kind of helps things along. Because when you get in like petty beasts with people that you love and then you think about them not being here or they think about you not being here, it ain't that big of a deal. It ain't that big of a deal
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 4:48
I just wanted life to be better. I didn't really want to go into the great beyond. I just wanted life to be better. So I can say that I didn't want to go. And I'm glad I didn't go when it comes to death in general, because I've experienced death with close family members, even with my sister. I haven't mentioned this to a lot of people, but I had a dream that really, actually foretold her death saw as clear as day
Swell Team
@Swell · 0:15
And I say that to say, like, if that's a situation that I got, I hope that nobody has to go through. But, I mean, anybody that's listening, that's not a quick thing. And the doctor didn't tell us it's not a quick thing. It's not. Me and my brother wanted to stay in there. We did. Everybody else had to end up leaving because it was too much
Or is he a loving and caring God? Are we going New Testament or Old Testament? I don't know. I like to believe that everybody goes and everybody has an understanding. Like earlier, I was going to swear and it was said that the relationships aren't going to matter when you get up there. Everybody's going to be your brother and sister. Why can't it be Muslims and Jews, too? How come God might have gave them something to roll with?
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 4:42
I got family members and it's like from day one, they've been crying, right? And you just wish they could catch a break. And so you think, okay, death might be that break for them. And whether it's heaven or doing it again, you just want them to have a break, right? But, yeah, I believe in heaven. I don't believe in ghost. I don't believe in that because why would somebody die and still be walking around here?
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 4:16
And I've heard that too, from people where a person could be suffering in pain and pain and pain, and then suddenly they stop moaning, they stop groaning, they look up, they smile, their eyes get bright, and then they die. And if that's not a welcoming feeling to know what's waiting on the other side for you, for us, that's a welcoming feeling. We're never alone. Definitely not in life, and especially not in death
Bernard Harmon
@iambernard · 5:00
And I remember this incident because I sat there and smoked. While one bowel was cooling off, I would pull another in smoking to the point I was like Zooted to I've heard the voice of the adversary, said this one right here, this last hit, it's going to knock you out. And I tell you the truth, I was at work, matter of fact I was a security guard. Laugh about it because I put me watching the building
Too strong for that, blah, blah, blah. And I stand I'm here today to be able to tell that story, and I'll tell that story to anybody that want to hear, you know what I mean? Or for somebody that knows it and says, look, man, can you talk to my son when he ready to talk to me, here's my number. Because I can't push it on him, you know what I mean?
But it's just crazy. That part of it was crazy to me. And it's like, how could you not? And like I said, people look at me, they know I don't drink, you know what I mean? But you look like you ain't never even smoked a cigarette. And that's what God can do, and I'm grateful for that. So when I get excited and when I get passionate and they mike oh, here go, here go Mike again
Luce Fonrose
@ilovelucee · 3:09
You. Am I raised to die? No. I would say no, because there's so many things that I haven't accomplished yet, and I want to be able to be like, yo, finally. I work so hard for this. This is what I cry for. This is what, you know, I sacrificed this for all our heart heartbreak. This is what this was about. I don't want any of that to be in vain
I might have went through the list or another one of how many people that have died right in front of me, or I found them. So it's like some of them were crossing over. Did you send me just to sit here with them? You know what I mean? Or to keep things cool or whatever. But it's been more than three or four people, you know what I mean?
It's more than what you would feel on average, because I have felt that way before where I just I don't feel like going to work today, but now I go through this time where it's incredibly hard for me to go to work. It's so hard for me to get up out of bed. It's so hard for me to be present. And I just go through these things, and I wonder sometimes if death would be better, because what's the alternative?
I remember thinking, like, I wanted to be the person that would be married, you know what I mean, for 30 some years and whatever, and it still could happen. Now it depends on how long I live and when I get married, you know what I mean? It's not like a benchmark or it's not like a dream. I'll take five years of happiness over 25 years of mess, but I got a whole nother thing that's a whole nother swell on time