And she knows how much she just didn't realize how deep I had fallen and how deep I was within my emotions until yeah, she actually until we actually talked about it, and she actually realized that it was very deep and because she's already worked through hers and pretty much decided that there's that end and I just have to end it myself and let him go. It's just hard. And I cried last night because there was just so much emotions
Like, maybe it's closure for her, but I don't know if it's closure for me. And that's the hardest thing is I don't know what closure will be for me unless it's to do with me accepting my feelings and accepting everything else. And I guess she also didn't know how much I had on my plate that I had to work through and to understand. She now understands what's going on. Yeah
It's. It hasn't been the easiest six months, and this week is also my birthday. So it's kind of, I think, yes, my emotions are kind of high just because of how the previous years, my birthday has been celebrated. Like, my ex does say that, you know, I should be celebrating my birthday, but it's like, it's hard to celebrate your birthday when no one's ever showing you how to celebrate your birthday