And you should be proud of the steps that you've taken to ensure your safety and the safety of others and being honest about that, not just with yourself, but with the world so that other people can learn and hear how to cope themselves. You always said you wish you could have talked to Dustin, that you could have been there. I know that weighs on you a lot. It hasn't been that long. Once somebody makes that decision, everyone says there's nothing you can do
I don't even know what I have to say except for I just wanted to say how beautiful this was and I hope you listen to this any time that you need to and are reminded of who you are and who you know yourself to be. I know that some of us are our own worst critic and I know I always have higher standards for myself than I do for others
Another news, you dipped out right before a global pandemic. That's not been fun for anyone. Dustin left us back in September. John left us. Ray left us. Isaiah left us. Bungee left us. Rachel left us. Alan left us. It's not been great. It's not been great. But probably one of the most significant moments of my life was when you talked to me from your hospital bed and asked me to be here
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I would like rub my arm and talk to her. She's a totally different person and tell her she's beautiful and it's just going to be okay and all those things and I calm down pretty quickly. Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you for responding. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your experiences. I appreciate that and I hope that you are having the day night that you deserve. Thanks
And I also think it's beautiful that you are speaking to the part of you, the feminine, in the way that you see her and directly to that part of you that is that is hurt and needs comfort. I think there's so much my wife identifies as non binary. We still say wife because as I've been with her for eleven years, we still say her, but she actually identifies more in the masculine now