Is it envy? Or is it longing? Sometimes I worry about myself. Do I have a serious problem? Or are these normal feelings? I'm sure they're normal human feelings. But have I let them escalate? Have they manifested to a point beyond control? When someone talks about their happy memories or about their plans why do I feel annoying inside? Maybe I have acted it out well. Hopefully my mask worked today as well. I depend on my mask like it's my life