It's been pretty difficult. My motivation went down. Anxiety started coming back. Intrusive thoughts started coming back, and I know why. So I have a big belief that I'll tell you guys right now that I did not want to have children. So the fact that I have a child and that I have accepted that quest wholeheartedly, I love being a dad now. I love being a dad. But when it's happening, I'm scared. I never even really babysat a baby before
Sarah Blanche
@SarahBd1 · 2:01
This past week, probably the last two weeks, my anxiety has creeped back into my life, and I feel like no matter how hard I try, like you said, the intrusive thoughts, the lies that you tell yourself when you're going through your anxiety and all of that fun stuff, it's just so hard to push through. And I pushed through before, and I know I can do it again
J Moor
@Phase_Reality · 1:38
Hey, Sarah. It's good to hear from you again. So sorry that you had anxiety. Yeah. The first and second day of the month. Yeah. It was like, Why are you here? Why are you here? Come on. Why are you always here? Why do you always try to come back? You and I both know what happened. One or two things happened. Either I allowed you or I don't, and then you eventually leave. Okay. Yeah
Swell Team
@Swell · 0:15
Sarah Blanche
@SarahBd1 · 0:47
Hey, Jay. Happy Sunday. Yeah, thank you for responding. I think my son is playing the guitar in the background. The boys are great. Thank you for asking. I had my eldest grandson over a couple of days last week and he truly does help when the anxiety creeps in. He just makes me he's so happy. So does the other one, but he's still too little. Not too little, too young to spend the night
J Moor
@Phase_Reality · 4:18
That was such a huge eye opener for me because, you know, before my daughter, I had absolutely, I want to say almost zero contact with or not zero contact, zero responsibility, actually. Yeah, zero contact. The last child I was really around was my brother when when he was younger, and that was well, he's 20 years old now. We're ten years apart, so yeah, that's about how long ago?
