You. So this is part six. And like I said, I loved him. I never wanted us to not be together. I thought we were going to be married forever, and I was just going to, baby, be able to endure it and endure things, endure feeling less that I was and be able to handle being isolated and alienated from everybody I loved. Anyway, so that night he told me not to pull on the gun because he may shoot me. And I said, okay