Not so smooth part II
And although I don't want to say I was prepared for any of it, I just knew that I was the person that was supposed to do that. I'm the oldest of three, so now it's just me and my little brother, which he's seven years younger than me, and without my little brother, I would never have been able to get through what I got through. So now that part of my life is over
And what are all the themes and the processes that you have to go through? So that's where I'm at as well. And this post really resonated with me because of that. So thank you for sharing. Thank you for being vulnerable and just allowing people into your spaces and into the themes going on with you. I really, truly appreciate being a part of this thread, and I definitely will keep listening and keep coming to be in the conversation
Pete O'Neal, Jr.
@NextUp · 2:26
I know you just lost family recently and that is a hard thing. You never move past it, you just learn to accept it as you move forward in life. And I've already followed you. I've clicked that follow button because that's very important and I am very much looking forward to listening to your wisdom and the things that you bring to swell. Thanks for letting me reply and taking the time to listen to what I had to say
I called them grief wave. It's just when all that grief comes rushing in and that wave is so high and you can't stop it, some people grieve consistently, some people grieve having these grief waves. And that seems to be my situation. So when they come, you know, it's it I try to control it, but it just overwhelms me. And once it's over, I feel a lot better. But like you said, you'll never get over grief
J.L. Beasley
@Her_Sisu · 4:58
And I'm not even going to say, excuse me, forgive me. I might sound a little choppy as I leave this because I get emotional talking about it. I'm not asking for forgiveness or to be excused for the outward display of my grief. It is what it is. And I was so lost once he passed. And then I had this realization in my grief that in my healing and it's going to forever be a part of who you are
She was on hospice in the same room he was in because she was his caregiver. And then I had to turn around, which I couldn't. I had to get my little brother to do it. He had to tell my dad that he lost his daughter as well
People have their beliefs of what they think may be stopping them. And I'm of the belief of there's nobody bigger than God for me. You start asking God questions, you better be prepared for the answers. And I he gave me some answers. Listening to some of the swells and, and and helping me to reflect on the past seven years of my life to tell me this is why I see things coming that you will never see