Like, the older you get, the more difficult it is to distract yourself or be optimistic or is it just the world that we're in now that it's really hard to see a good future? And I hate to be a negative person. I want to feel optimistic about things, but it's gained to the point now where I think, do I even want to have kids? What kind of world would I bring them into? It's not a place that's looking very good these days