Am I if I can just look the part people might not see my truth I'll smile so pretty for you and for the camera look how happy I am. I don't ever show my churning rage or my seafloor sadness. It's been so long since I let myself feel that I'm not even sure how to anymore. The waves keep pounding me and all I can do is take it. I look in the mirror and see a stranger whose oceanic eyes have lost their depth
Becky Butler
@bc75 · 2:23
You Laura are lovable all the time. Your Laura is infectious and your voice very kind and just. Thank you for sharing and speaking into my heart and listening to this one. I gripped onto it from the start. It the depths of truth. Unfortunately state. So many walk in a disaffected state. We don't want to know, we don't want to be bothered, we don't want to be intruded upon. So we wall up to keep out, yet that keeps us in
Renee Slay
@Renee_Slay · 0:22
It's. So I literally have goosebumps. This is magic. This is magic. Am I lovable now? Now that I've done everything that you've said and conformed and not been me? I love it. Hand on Bible. Oh, I loved it
Swell Team
@Swell · 0:15
Laura L (she/her)
@Loloflow · 0:29
You. Bingo. You got it. Yeah, I'm doing a little autopsy on some of the religious trauma that I've dealt with in my life, and you get it. Thanks so much, Renee, for listening and for your amazing support
Laura L (she/her)
@Loloflow · 0:12
Hey, Becky. Thank you so much for that. I really appreciate your kind words. And thank you for listening and replying
Renee Slay
@Renee_Slay · 0:52
I just wanted to add that I am in the middle of what you speak of as well. Where I am peeling back all these layers of s*** that has been dumped on me or applied to me, what I was supposed to be, who everybody figured out at this point that I am not and rejected for and trying to figure out me. And I know how hard that is just to find yourself outside of everything else because everything else has been a constant
I tell you this, sister, if no one else loves you, they're f****** crazy. And if they don't, I definitely do. You are f****** amazing. This piece of poetry was brilliant. And as the daughter of a pastor growing up in church and among all of the people filled with their religiosity, I totally get this. It resonates so much with me
Laura L (she/her)
@Loloflow · 0:51
Hey. Yes. All of that I love so much that image that you attach to your reply. It really does feel like that. And we're in a major astrological thing going on right now where this is definitely happening to a lot of us a I'm and we just gotta try as much as we can to flow with it, even though a lot of it's so uncomfortable. But then again, it also feels like coming home
Laura L (she/her)
@Loloflow · 1:54
Once I finally figure it out and we finally figure out that it's okay to be our true selves and to show people who that is, that's the only way we can actually truly be loved and seen. And I'm so glad that we're here together to do that for each other because I love you so much. You are such a beautiful soul, and we definitely are soul mates. And I'm just constantly thanking my guides for you and for this experience here on Swell