Does it leave a lot of people devastated if I were to do that? Sure, absolutely. But it is not a selfish act in the way that you think. So many people have said that to me too is such and such committed suicide. They were so selfish. I wouldn't use that word. Because when you get to the point that you no longer want to live, you're in so much pain. You're in such a deep, dark place of nothingness