So what I would tell my 13 year old self would be, it's fine, just don't trust anybody. Don't, don't. Don't trust those people that you so highly admire and respect and you just trust them with everything in you. At 13, trust issues should never be an issue, to be honest with you
You don't want to become jaded too quick in life, but it's just a wild ride. And I definitely can relate to you in some way with what you're saying. And I just want to say that I hope you're doing well now, and hopefully there's some people that you trust, and hopefully that you trust yourself. I think if we can teach our younger selves to trust ourselves for the right reasons, act out of wholeness and not out of incompleteness
And at 13, all kinds of chaos is going on. Your body's changing, your sensibility about knowing the difference between right and wrong. And you're a teenager now. Does that really matter? How much difference does it really make? I think we are imbued with more responsibilities, but in terms of privilege. So I guess I would say to myself, do what you think is the right thing, because you are paying attention