Now, a lot of people don't get the luxury of growing up in the situation that I did, even though my mom did disappear when I was a young kid. I grew up with older souls. I got to grow up with my grandma, and I got to grow up with my great grandmother and my Paw Paul, and I got to spend a little bit of time with my big mama. So I got to spend time with three generations older than I am
J Moor
@Phase_Reality · 3:53
Those are all coping mechanisms from something that could have happened earlier with someone who doesn't have that structure of their parents around, it kind of allows that child. And I like how the part where you say if they don't have a belief system, well, what about a child not having a structural system at all? And we can sit here and say, like, well, my grandma was here, my grandpa was there. Bob we can say that
So my coping mechanisms growing up was for hoping to see my mother again. And then after I hit the point to where I figured out that I wasn't going to never see my mother again, I started to wonder about my dad very early and the stories that I was told about his a** are crazy. And like I said, my dad is 88 right now. I'm 42, so he's quite older than I am
Swell Team
@Swell · 0:15
J Moor
@Phase_Reality · 4:02
The child asks for reasons because they want to interpret it. It sounded like that's what you were. You were a child who the reality did not fit your description. You asked questions, and it makes people uncomfortable, and you have to decide decipher through the bits of information that you get. So, like me, I'm going through that process right now to figure out my history
