And so that alone right there, is just, you know, really makes me wonder. But on the other hand, sometimes, even if I was kidding myself, sometimes I wish I had something that I really believe strongly and firmly and without a doubt in the world, you know? And it made me feel so safe and confident. So, you know, to a degree, I understand the need for these fantasies, even though they haven't been proven and even though they haven't been disproven