jamie church
@jemecherche · 4:39
Invisible To Myself: aging and sexuality, and centering myself in my own narrative
Suddenly, I mean, I could visualize myself and go through something and perhaps be the lead, the love interest, the woman who is desirable not only for sexuality, but also for her high worth and the respect accorded to her by those around her, in part because of her desirability. And all of a sudden, when I was visualizing myself in that role of the lead, the people I was visualizing reacting to me reacted differently
Rocío (Ro) Christensen
@rocio · 1:12
That was a really interesting and very visual way of describing that. I don't think I've ever heard anybody speak like you do, which I really, really enjoyed, but I just want to make sure I'm understanding. So I'm going to dumb it down just to my level of language, but do you mean that you sort of weren't living up to the fantasies that you had for yourself in your mind?
jamie church
@jemecherche · 2:46
I hope this helps or at least doesn't make you go, wow, that's a powerful migraine. So hope you're having a great Sunday, and I will look forward to maybe hearing what you thought about that
Swell Team
@Swell · 0:15
I mean, I have this weird thing that it's not exactly related, but it has something to do with self in the sense that when I'm in public and people recognize me, it shocks the s*** out of me because it's almost like I don't see myself as the walking meatbag I'm almost observing as a third party. And then I'm surprised that someone recognizes the meatbag because that's not really me. I don't know how to describe it
jamie church
@jemecherche · 3:44
But yeah, now I call myself the wart because I feel like this body that I walk around in is a wart on my consciousness to a certain extent. It's kind of a growth that I inhabit. Yeah, it's a fascinating concept when you start taking the essence of self as something that is persistent beyond this body and that doesn't require this body to house it