And it's an emotion that some days can be atrocious, some days joyful, but it's not something where you can just put in a box and be done with it's. Not just like some people say, pictures or mementos or things like that. Grief is not something that you can put away. And I'm okay with that. I feel like I've come a long way of accepting the fact that grief is here to stay with me, but I don't accept that he's gone