And I try to always connect to something and I remember when I did not feel any of those things. And I remember the pain of having self doubt and being uncomfortable and not smiling and having sadness and coming to a point in my life now where even when some stuff is happening, I still have hope. I still have love and I'm happy and I have joy and I still have that contentment within and it took a while to get there. And I just want everybody to have that