Time is not taking out now all it feels like is a complete blackout nervously biting my lips like a finger nail against the clip. I got it. I can do it, I keep telling myself pretending to be okay and on self it feels so empty and numb from the inside feeling like a paralyzed soul from outside. Can it get any worse? I am already filled with rivers in search for an ounce of sunshine that can make my heart fine and makes my soul divine