It's somebody who's going to stand with me and not make me feel even worse because I can't consider their feelings right now because I'm being swallowed up in my own. I don't mean to be selfish. I don't mean to only think of myself. I'm all I have and I don't like it here. Life isn't supposed to be like this. It should be filled with family and friends and laughter. But for me, it's a penance, I guess