I couldn't go to a rave or party like the old days, but I wanted to carry out some of that plural energy into the real world. I would meet the world and engage people gravitated towards me and we'd have fun interactions. I was lonely and worse over compensating. I had this thing for girls to have flowers. I got to keep things via voicemail, but then got an angry visit from her father days later
Josh Colon
@Gitdown · 2:31
This is bleak. There was another kid in captain video named Paul. He was just a really he was just really quiet and shy. He was in the first or second year in college. I think we couldn't be any different, but we were more like than I thought. Years later he came out and he shared that watching me has made it easier for him to come out
