I should just know better than to call. And yet I do. And I hang up and I feel incredibly disappointed and hurt and mad, and I don't say anything. I just bite my tongue and let her get on with her day because I need to get off the phone. Otherwise I'm going to say something that I'll regret. And I don't want to be one of those kids at a funeral one day with regrets about my parents
Loosen my fingers on the stories I tell myself about what a parent is. What a daughter is. Those kinds of things. And then offer myself grace of how much of this is biology and I can't fight it. And how much of this is something I can help myself with. With processing the need. The healing of whatever it is I'm looking for. That they can't provide and that keeps me coming back looking for it anyway. My parents have both since passed
Carey Braidt
@countryswell · 2:49
Well, I just really appreciate you chiming in and your honest support and a little bit of your vulnerability on the topic as well. I do really appreciate it and it is good to know I am not alone out there with my motherly. Woes. I wish you all the best and thank you so much for your lovely feedback. That was very, very healing, more than you'll probably realize. Thank you. Bye
Swell Team
@Swell · 0:15
J.L. Beasley
@Her_Sisu · 4:59
And I'll be on the other end of the phone or sometimes even looking at her face like, oh my God, have you been holding onto that to hit me and kick me while I'm low versus saying, oh my goodness, let me build you back up or support you. I get it. And it's something I struggle with in the dynamic of my own son in terms of just I don't want to be her
Carey Braidt
@countryswell · 2:52
Okay, so Hercy sue, you had me the first 2nd I'm like in stitches listening to you say, suck it up, buttercup. My God, thank you for that alone. And then when you mentioned the Instagram person, I immediately just rewound. Okay, tell them outside. My roosters crowing like crazy today. I instantly rewound and got the person's name and opened up Instagram and followed