Stop doubting on yourself and having fears. You are Shiva's creation and fear should not control your life. Have trust. Have faith in Mahadev and if you follow him, you should know that he will never let anything wrong happen to you. So don't be afraid of people's judgments and opinions. Don't fear what they talk behind your back. Just have faith in yourself and have faith in Shiva. He is the light source. He's everything. And just keep shining bright like a star