And so just having that anxiety of life became very fragile after he passed. It just happened suddenly. And then all of a sudden, things were just really different. And so that made me really anxious about getting out there and traveling. Well, I did it. I traveled. I've been traveling here and there. I've been to Texas since he passed. I went to Puerto Rico last year, and this year we did Cabo and I did Disney even. But it's very intense