It's not what they needed, it's what they deserved. I just started going within myself and not being as affectionate as they got older. So I'm not trying to make up for lost time. Time is time is over. It's called the past because it already happened and you cannot change it. But what I'm trying to do now is break that cycle where I did not show them that type of affection
Ricky Powell
@RickyD · 3:42
And then when you notice it, being the ones to put a stop to it, the first step yes, is definitely taking notice. Taking notice like, hey, this is the same thing, or, this is the same way my mother or my father treated me or my parents. This is how they treated me in my childhood. And I'm seeing my children having that same type of look that I had in my eyes when I was growing up
Blacc Queen
@BlaccQueen · 4:58
So I applaud you for, first of all, acknowledging it and breaking it. Now you're continuing with the new, improved version of yourself, which includes emotions and tears, because tears release pain, it releases sickness. So I am learning every day. I think I've always known about generational trauma like you, but I never wanted to call it that because, like you said, it was called this a curse of the family
Swell Team
@Swell · 0:15
Blacc Queen
@BlaccQueen · 5:00
Then I opened up more to my younger son because of the situation with the divorce, he felt a closer connection to my ex husband. So I really had to take baby steps with him. I had started my career when he turned two, so he was with my mother and my ex husband had the influence over him. So he felt that I didn't care or love him. So now I'm doing baby steps with him. My oldest son, he's a mensa
DAYDAY Mcclenton
@KINGPOPOFLA · 2:33
Only because I say this, her mother did not show that to her. And maybe if her mother hugged or said she loved or just showed a little bit more compassion and not hatred like she just hated her because she was born and s*** like that and made her feel like she's a black sheep. So when my mother became a mother, it seemed like what her mother did to her, it rolled over to us