I killed my husband!Part1
Immediately I started to feel a little guilt and I introspected where it came from. Lately my relatives have been appearing in herds to see my father as he was not doing well. And invariably everyone has been asking me where my husbandpart is. Like there is nothing else you can ask a married woman. They don't know if I'm still married or not. Hell, I don't know if I'm still married or not. So here's my SOP fest
So now I'm married, but not married. I don't know. I am single or not, I don't know. Will I be available or not? I don't know. Can I meet another man? I don't know. He has left me in a fucking limbo and so I killed him. Now, how I am coping with managing the household which was run by two I will share in my other spell, but I will tell you this
Kaps A Perspective !!!!!
@kaps60539Ā Ā·Ā 5:00
You a very good morning. Ashmi. That's life. You would be wondering why the fuck is it happening with me? It's with everybody relations, life, career, you. But I like the line the suffering. The pain is there. The suffering should not be there. Fantabulously, I'm sure that's an affirmation from your side. Fantabulously, kudos to you. What you spoke, that's how it has to be. Pain is a part of life
@Candy Livesherlife
@candylivesĀ Ā·Ā 1:32
You're not looking for vague, superficial thing, but I felt like, I listen to this and I remain silent. It's like falling into the wide open. And if nobody's there, to at least be like, you know what? Love, hugs and kisses and then cheering you and being like, you're doing great, you're doing great and you're amazing. Such an amazing woman
Dr.khushboo chauhan
@FragranceĀ Ā·Ā 1:21
Hey Ash, I thoroughly listen your swell from beginning till the end, word to word and I was like damn, like how strong you are. You are such a wonderful lady, with lot of strength in you. And when you have said that you have chose you, that is a whole new. You have already explored, you have developed in you. So kudos to you, girl. You have already came so far
Swati Sharma
@SwatiselfloveĀ Ā·Ā 2:23
You can't just be wasting your life on such a person who cares a shit about you. And thankfully you are somewhere learning to heal yourself on your own. You are a savior of your own. I could actually see that how much you are being the guardian of your own peace of mind. And the best thing that you said that you are not going to suffer in silence, my dear. That's the best thing. Never suffer
Dayakar Rapaka
@WizdayaĀ Ā·Ā 1:41
And trust in the journey. And believe that true happiness awaits you on the other side. So life has an extraordinary way of surprising us when we least expect it, correct? So stay strong, have faith, and never lose hope. You are deserving of all the love and joy that life has to offer. So wishing you strength and abundance of love, my friend, you god bless
Rashi Chaudhary
@RashispeaksĀ Ā·Ā 0:41
Oh, my God. You are so strong, Candy Brave, with every word that you have said, I have felt such empowerment personally, and I cannot even begin to imagine the pain that you must be going through. But the way you are dealing with all of this and the way you have spoken about it, spoken up about it, it is mendable. So a big, big hug to you. And I'm sending you all my love. All my love
Rohit "ROSH" Sharma
@FoodographerĀ Ā·Ā 0:28
Ahead. Move on. Understand? Take step, decide finalize it. The world is very beautiful. The world is full of nice people to move on
Pragati Chopra
@Pragati.chopraĀ Ā·Ā 4:45
And I and people of this generation are ready to pay that cost. We are brave. We have been brought up by our parents to speak up and when even if the speaking up is rebuked by the same parents, once we are married, we are out on our own, fighting against the wrong attitude of adjustments, against society, against our elders, against our own parents. And you have the right attitude. Pain is inevitable, but suffering is our choice
Swell Team
@SwellĀ Ā·Ā 0:15
Sreeja V
@WordsmithĀ Ā·Ā 1:39
Perhaps this relationship was one such thing and in the process of evolving process of growth, these experiences that come, we need to sort of take that in our stride which you have been doing beautifully and what courage, I would say what grit. Hats off to you. Hats off, really. And you will be in my prayers and this too shall pass. Take care
Surya V
@welcome28Ā Ā·Ā 0:58
Hello. Hi, my friend. How are you? Okay. Yes, you are absolutely correct. Pain is mandatory, but suffering is optional. And also you can love a criminal. Someday he may change. You can love a murderer. Someday he may change. Even you can love a person without manners. Someday he may get manners but never love a covered. Those covered never really change themselves. So you can love anybody except a covered. Basically, I feel he is just a covered
Surya V
@welcome28Ā Ā·Ā 3:54
So infatuation will fade out someday. It may fade out. But love just it is it just sparks in a second. So absolutely you are correct in your views. I respect your views. Be happy. Be joyous. Bye. Yes, my friend. Also one more thing. You are above all these you are above all these things. You are above your situations. You are above your position. You are above your possessions also. That's what is needed. Enjoy life
Kadambari Gupta
@kadambariguptaĀ Ā·Ā 0:40
Ma'am. I am Kadambari Gupta. I heard your good evening, ma'am. I am Kathamri Gupta. And I just heard your swell you are very strong, ma'am. You know, anybody could have perished in this situation. It's not easy. I just want to say that keep your strength, keep your courage. I know it's not easy. It's easier said than done. But we are with you. I'll pray that everything in your life is sorted now. Sorted
Dharmin Chanda
@bombaybluesĀ Ā·Ā 4:59
While in my very timid attempt to walking on a certain path in life, I have in fact seen and heard a few toxic relationships en route to this path. So of course, I'm not going to say that this is the first one I've heard, but sure, I truly understand the gravity and the depth of how very thinking and how disappointing candy how unruly life can get from time to time
Surabhi Verma
@Surabhiverma29Ā Ā·Ā 2:35
Hi. That's a very sensitive issue that you are dealing with right now. I would just say here, I will not give you any words of sympathy or I will not say that you do this or you do that, or everything happens for the good, because I have been through a similar situation and I know exactly how small, abandoned, insignificant you feel
sharon anugraham
@TobeHeard5Ā Ā·Ā 1:30
You, hey, that was you know, I end my day listening to some swells and yeah, I was a little concerned for what you're going through, but at the same time believe that something that has happened and something that has that you don't have any control over, you just have to let it go. And this might be the beginning, for the beginning of many wonderful things to come in your life. So a lot of support, lot of warmth from me to you
aamna singh
@aamyĀ Ā·Ā 2:01
Hey, Ash, I heard the entire swell, and kudos to you, girl. I think the definition of a strong woman for me is someone who embraces the authenticity that she possesses her true self unapologetically. I don't want to sound rude, but I just feel that when you learn to navigate your challenges and you're resilient and you face adversity head on, you are not just trying and working towards your development, but you're also promoting inclusivity by being this naked and this vulnerable on the platform
Jaya Sharma
@jayasharmaĀ Ā·Ā 1:38
Suddenly all responsibility has put on her shoulders shoulders. That time she feel herself lonely and helpless. Know anyone with her her dreams has sharma very difficult situation they has faced. I mean every woman. Your story is very heart touching. It is truth teller. Thank you
Shobhana Nair
@nairshobsĀ Ā·Ā 1:50
But learn to harbor forgiveness. It will only benefit your physical and mental health. Also, make a conscious effort to stop harboring negative emotions towards the person who wronged. You not worth it really, I'm telling you. But you know what? In your situation the best thing is you don't have kids. I might sound a little harsh, but imagine if you had kids today. You would have been stuck very badly. So now hold your chin high. Look ahead
Mahima Mamgain
@MM007Ā Ā·Ā 0:48
What would you rather be than? What would you rather be than? What do you think of yourself in this moment? Answer me. And by answering me, you'll be answering yourself
Renee šŖ¬
@RensLensĀ Ā·Ā 4:30
He packed up everything in the house except for the things in the baby's bedroom, and he left her with no explanation, the family home. He had already previously stopped paying the bills months before and didn't give her an explanation. This was, oh, God, maybe ten years ago now. And at the time, we did not know as much about her, and I did not know as much about narcissism as we know now
Jaya Sharma
@jayasharmaĀ Ā·Ā 2:14
Hello Ash. Good afternoon. I listen your swell. It's very painful and it's harsh truth. Not only you not only you have faced this situation. Many innocent girls are facing that problem. At present I saw some same cases just like your case. My neighbor's daughter she is very innocent, very sincere and intelligent. Her parents search a groom for her at matrimonial site. He is looking smart and handsome
Shiva Guru N
@arulmozhivarmanĀ Ā·Ā 3:22
Not as quickly as we would like it to move away, but yes, over the long run it should look like a tiny speck and it would all depend on what you would want out of your future. Like what do you want and how you want to pace things. And like I said, the sleep bit is very important. That is a marker
Payal Shandil Gupta
@Payal_ShandilĀ Ā·Ā 3:19
You. Good morning. Are you bored with messages of solidarity yet? I hope not. But a, I have to get this out of the way, so I'm so, so sorry. But your husband deserved to die. If he ever comes back, if he ever dares to show his face, murder him and call me. I'll help you bury him up. I always dreamt of doing that. So it would be a favor that you'd be doing on me
Hi pile. I absolutely loved listening to you, especially the bedsheet thing. I get it. I know so many people would know you just by the fact that we are our husband's wife. Well, it has been a while now. I made this post in May, I suppose, or sometime back, I don't remember exactly, but yeah, it has been almost a year now that he left. Candy
Hello hi, thank you for your reply and yes trauma does last for a few months so I am a psychologist by profession and thankfully being from that profession and having studied psychology I think that was also a big thing that helped me move on and cope with all this. So I posted this almost a year back now
Shiva Guru N
@arulmozhivarmanĀ Ā·Ā 0:30
Okay? I don't know. You had a psychology background. I guess I have kind of embarrassed myself by teaching a fish how to swim. That embarrassment aside, I think this was a very interesting interaction for me. And I hope you heal really quickly and you move forward. Best wishes and have a wonderful day. Bye
Oh, no, please don't be embarrassed. You know, I might have studied psychology. I might be a psychologist by profession. But then it's always good to hear these things from people around us, because sometimes we tend to forget. And psychologists are people too, so we can also get really goofed up in our head. Thank you so much for your reply