The first thing that I do is not criticize myself, but I have a toxic trait of being jealous of that person and thinking that okay, that person deserved it by love or something else or some other influence and not because of their sheer what to say because of their own capabilities. So at first what I used to do is that whenever someone used to achieve more than what I could do, I used to get pet jealous and in my mind I used to bad mouth that person or something