We later found out she was white, mixed with her biological mom was white, her dad was black. My biological mom is Mexican, my dad is black. I don't really know if that plays a part, but I just thought I'd put it in there just for context. So she's five years older than me. Both of my parents worked outside of the home, and so I was left at home with her to take care of me when we came of age
Andrea Piggue
@Andrea_Speaks · 5:00
Like, my sister, she got into a lot of trouble, and she did a lot of stuff, and so I didn't do a lot of stuff because I saw her getting in trouble, and I just didn't want to get in trouble like she did. And so, of course, she used that to say I was a goodie two shoes and my parents loved me more, which fueled her anger towards me, her resentment towards me
Tanya Coles
@MsColes77 · 4:48
And so we were all still living at home. My sister, her baby, me, my parents. We were also living at home together. When my sister started having kids, my parents focus turned to my sister. So now it's all about babysitting. It's all about helping my sister learn how to be a mom. Because she was a single mom, there was no father in the picture
Tanya Coles
@MsColes77 · 4:32
But even now, it's like my parents and my sister have a really close relationship because they go to church together, and my sister doesn't work anymore because of her health. So she gets to spend a lot of time with my parents because they're retired and they always hang out. And you can tell when you come around them that they have this close relationship that I don't have with them because I'm working. I can't spend three and four days a week at my parents house
Andrea Piggue
@Andrea_Speaks · 4:50
I think that's what it was, subconsciously, because I even hid my daughter. I've never admitted this, but I hid my daughter. I knew I was pregnant from the moment I got pregnant. I didn't really know what was going on. Like, I knew something was going on, but I didn't really know about the birds and the bees and how you get pregnant and all that kind of stuff. And so I'll make another swell about that, but I didn't know
Andrea Piggue
@Andrea_Speaks · 4:45
I understand 70 times, seven in a day, I get it. But at some point, you just have to be like, you know what? You like being in that place. And so I don't and so that's that. And so that's where we are. I don't stay there. I'm not going to stay there. But I know God in his time. If it's his will for us to have family relationships, he will