That's what I get to have. And every time I'd lose it, I'd lose the baby. And it got to the point so badly that when I found out I was pregnant, it was no longer fortuitous at all. I dreaded the day that I would find out I miscarried. And it got sooner and sooner and sooner
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 4:57
You know, a lot of stigma goes with this. On top of it being very painful, physically and emotionally. When I had the first miscarriage, I was surprised one how much it hurt, and I think I was about seven weeks. I was surprised how much it hurt, and I was surprised how much I cried. I knew that losing a child would be very painful, but I had no idea that losing an early pregnancy would have the effect on me that it did. No idea
MJ Brewer
@Mommas_Jungle · 4:12
People, when you were excited, you know, you went to work, you called your friends, you called your family, your significant other, hopefully was happy that you were pregnant. Everyone starts planning and their eyes light up and they pet your tummy and all of these great things, these expectations. And then the next time they see you, there's no lump. And they say, oh, did you have your baby? And there's the discussion, right?
Swell Team
@Swell · 0:15
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 4:55
Hey MJ, my jaw is dropped and I'm not surprised. But man, what you mentioned about the Mormon community and how a woman who can't give birth is looked at, I'm honestly not surprised. But oh my God, what shame, guilt and pain a woman must carry if she one never marries and have children, which we know that is beyond just the Mormon culture. But if she were to miscarry
Hello MJ, thank you for your post and thank you for having the courage to be able to heal through that process that you had to go through. That's amazing. More women need to know that there are other factors that come into play with miscarriages, and definitely infections are one of them. So it's definitely informative. It's definitely needed to be heard. And I know that so many women will be grateful that you were so honest and vulnerable to share your experience
MJ Brewer
@Mommas_Jungle · 4:30
You know, my baby would be just like this right now. And I was going through that and she says, you know, it's really interesting, but I think that this is God's way of telling you that you don't deserve a baby because you're not living life right. That's why you miscarried. And I think that he took the seed from you and put it in me instead so I could have this baby
MJ Brewer
@Mommas_Jungle · 2:28
Or maybe if I find a way to overcome something that could help someone, I think that's important, too, to give other people some ideas when they're going through, you know, a difficult time in their life sometimes. I know. For me, I have had times where I've actually come on to sleep well and looked in a specific area just because I feel I need to find. To find something that I can listen to that reveals the same thing