It was the death of how I thought people perceived me to be and myself also. So it was very, very, very hard mentally just draining and energy wise draining. But I still put on a brave face. I still tried to be positive. I didn't put a whole bunch of stuff on social media about everything going on. And it wasn't that I was ashamed about it. You know, I only reached out to free, you know, some of my family members, friends