And even I've been able to rebuild and improve my relationships with some of my siblings. And in those relationships where I cared deeply and I showed it, I outwardly showed it. It didn't seem to be too much for them if something happened to them and it didn't happen to me, but I cried because I wanted better for them, stuff like that. They didn't look at me funny. They didn't act like I was doing too much. They totally got it