And then after the debilitating car accident, and before that, about 15 years before that, I had amnesia that never really. I had to rebuild everything. So life was pretty hard. And I'm not going to keep going on about it, except that I had two kids to care for on my own in these conditions, so it was tough. And how can you live like that and think, oh, gosh, is tomorrow going to be a day filled with rainbows and lollipops?