Today, my swell will be very short. I don't care what you think. I don't care what you've convinced yourself of. Trusting people is a mistake. Wanting to trust people is human nature. To follow that nature is a mistake
And I'm not living in a glasshouse throwing stone because I've been there. I've still done it. I still do it because when I catch myself, though, I bounce back and I say, wait a minute, I'm asking for her tear. Don't do it. Don't open up myself to trust in people, because you know what's going to happen. It's happened over and over again. Are you really going to do that again?
J.L. Beasley
@Her_Sisu · 4:58
So I gave a far out date, which happened to be a date that fell on this weekend thinking oh, the date is going to be so far away he'll lose interest. No. He remembered and reached back out and wanted to make arrangements to connect. And I felt the nudge again. Don't do it. This will not be good or safe for you
Angie McDow
@beyondthescars · 2:59
And I'm learning to listen to that inner voice that tells me, hey, this is not good for you. And I'm very newly recovering from 50 years of abuse. So I am trying to establish boundaries, and I'm trying to learn to listen to the empathetic side of me that knows things about these people that they don't know, I know, and to listen to those red flags that tell me I shouldn't be in this relationship, I shouldn't be here in this place
There's just no way in my mind that you can get around that people even though you have to to a certain extent the way you alluded to. Okay, you got insurance on your life insurance or auto insurance, and you have to trust that the insurance company is going to pay out your claim. But do they or do they give you a hard time? Has your trust been shaken then? People and the nature of people is just not to be trusted on any level
J.L. Beasley
@Her_Sisu · 2:58
Hey, I am glad this has resonated with you. I can speak for myself that societal conditioning, expectations from family, religion had placed these beliefs, these thoughts, these goals, these overall expectations on me, and that I accepted them even though as I was growing up, they weren't authentic to and for me. And so my biggest struggle was doing something, thinking something, being something different than what everyone and everything around me was saying is normal. That was the biggest struggle
But if someone new comes around me, I keep them at arm's length. I don't make friends that easily. I have maybe a handful of friends because I pick and choose them very wisely. Because again, I'm the type of person that I am, not a jealous person, I'm just very possessive. I protect what's mine. I'm a very tight knit person
