And while I would love a 92 or even 100 years, let's be real. I'm past the halfway mark. There are more days behind me than there are ahead of me. So at this point, I'm trying to balance it out. There's the reality of who I am, what I have, and where I am versus the hopes and dreams that I once had. And I say once have because I think it's time to maybe let some things go
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 3:47
So I'm happy that there's a lot of normalcy in my life. Hear me out, please. I'm happy for the normalcy, but that zest that I had in my twenties and thirties because there was so much hope for this, that and the other. I don't know. You know, like I always knew. I'm a creative soul and I'm great with the arts, right? And so I wrote a book. And my book did well for me
Evelyn Phipps
@LadyFi · 2:17
Am I the person I thought I was gonna be? No, of course I'm not. But what we thought could be too little of ourself. I am so much stronger, so much more capable. I think deeper. I love harder than I ever thought that I would. I mean, the girl that I was was naive and young and full of ideas. But they didn't come to fruition. But dreams deferred are not dreams dashed. They're not destroyed. They're just deferred
Isoellen Writes
@Isoellen · 4:59
But in seeing the time, energy, effort of going outside weather wise and your body and all of that, and getting those plants in the ground and then the caring for them, you know, I would add that up. Is it worth it to me? Does it have value? Is there going to be payoff? Is there going to be payoff that I am willing to maintain? And so I like to ask myself those questions now, do I think that dreams can come true?
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 1:33
But even though I repeated my steps or kind of went in a circle, walked out, walk, came back, it profited something, got my heart rate going. I did break out to a nice sweat. I live on a hill, so I got some hill workout. I feel it in my butt and my calves. And so even though I didn't go anywhere, I did something that just came to me, literally just came to me as I was thinking about moving forward
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 0:34
Hi there. I know your swell reply was about five minutes, but I listened to, like, the first 45 seconds and I had to stop and just say thank you. Wow. I love it what you said. It's not about who people think I am, who I think I am, who am I, and my challenges. Oh, I so love that. Those are definitely some journal props that I need to start doing in this season
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 3:43
We were talking about cars today and I asked her what kind of car she drives because she, she comes before me. I never seen her in the parking lot. Anyway. She drives a Mercedes truck that her husband bought for her. And I just was like, oh my God. Because my car is almost ten years old and it's doing well. I have a Honda, so good car. Good, good, sturdy car
Tanya Coles
@MsColes77 · 4:55
For all these men who act like, you know, it's no big deal when they get married, but, you know, the Bible says to love the wife of your youth. And so even men should be marrying and having children at a young age. I don't think. Even though men can have children at older ages, I don't think any man sets out to become a father at age 50. I don't think that's the goal, but it happens
Tanya Coles
@MsColes77 · 1:19
There are gonna be certain dreams, or we're just got to make peace with, okay, Lord, that is not your plan for me, obviously, you know, it's not your plan, or you have a different way that you're trying to introduce this or bring this into my life, but it's not the way that I thought, or this is not happening at the age that I thought
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 5:00
And now as I'm getting older, I'm like, okay, are we gonna get a 25th or 20th? And I don't know. The thought of being alone just really hit me this week. A lot of stuff hit me. A lot of stuff hit me this week. It's one thing to want a spouse and want a companion to share these wonderful upcoming golden years with, but then at the same time, I feel silly for believing in romance and getting all excited
Tanya Coles
@MsColes77 · 4:27
And homes are hard to get because now you got everybody trying to put a contract on the same house, so that makes it hard. And then gas is more expensive, food is more expensive. Everything is more expensive right now. And so that shifts things. And, of course, you know, in this situation, as you described having a child, you're uprooting not only your life, but you're uprooting someone else's life
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 4:58
And I was like, that's not what I thought. I thought I was moving to a place that had a much better cost of living. I said, I'm gonna rent a place that's more than my mortgage. And then that means I would need the. The exact rate of pay. There's no taxes, no income taxes
MJ Brewer
@Mommas_Jungle · 4:30
I'm not. I'm not a quitter, and I still have a long way to go. And however much time I have left is the time that I'll use wisely to get the best ending that I can for my life. So thank you so much for, you know, putting that story out there about tabs and your book of life, because I believe in my book, there are a lot of chapters, and the close of each chapter is the beginning of a new one
Shawna Kearsley
@OnAcornBay · 4:59
I would examine the choices, the paths, the lessons that you've learned along the way. These experiences can help you to gain the most deep insight into understanding yourself and how to move forward out of this transition. Rather, because this space that you're in is very necessary. This is a most necessary space to be embraced. Oftentimes we're in this space and we're a little bit grumpy, a little sad sometimes. Depression of the unknown
Angela Kaye
@AnngieKaye · 3:43
And I even got a suggestion to buy some fake plants and plant them, because once you plant them and have the black mulch, it looks really good. And, of course, they never die or wither