@NiquaJ
Niqua J
@NiquaJ · 3:59

I dont have all the answers, I dont want to spend all my life trying to get my mental together because it will never be together.

The day is still young, and eventually I'll get it, but just not right now. I've taken a year off from work, and I've been literally focusing on just my own mental health. I've quit so many jobs. I started jobs. I started College so many times, dropped out of College so many times because I don't know what I want to do with myself. I don't know what I want to do in life

#mentalCheck #gettinginto #myself #adhd #lovingmyself

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@All2beholdyou
Diana Jorda
@All2beholdyou · 2:26
Hey there, Nikujay. I just love your post. I love your spirit. I love just your becoming. And it just sounds like the way that you were describing yourself and and what you desire for at least your state of being. Right. Like rejection of the negativity, the toxic environment, the people and systems. It sounds like that frustrated you and maybe in some ways weren't working to your own interests or yeah, your own mechanism
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@NiquaJ
Niqua J
@NiquaJ · 3:39

#findingmyslef #igotthis thank you for your support

It is kicking my behind. Because I spent so many years in environments that did not benefit me. And because I have separated myself from that, I have to regain and learn how to be individual for myself, meaning that I am learning how to just be for me, learning how to what is it that I like? What is it that I want to be when I wake up or five years from now? Or do I want to feel sexy today? Do I want to feel clumsy today?
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@allowthesun
Chelsea Hanawalt
@allowthesun · 4:33

#change #lunarcycle #evolution #goinginward

But it's hard. It's hard. It's especially hard when it's people close to you, but I feel grateful that I had other family members that supported me, but they had no choice. I was like, I'm doing it. But I just think this needs to be talked about more about listening to yourself and allowing for change, allowing for evolution
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@Pinkdandylion
Latoya Pride-Cook
@Pinkdandylion · 2:36

@NiquaJ

I just want to be together, living in peace, minding my business, just doing anything that I want. Eating as much as I want, loving the people that I want to love. Just minding my business, having a simple, joyful life, to be honest, not doing too much. Just being a good person, really, that's all it is. The life, really, it doesn't matter. The education you have, clothes you wear, food you eat. None of that
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@Pinkdandylion
Latoya Pride-Cook
@Pinkdandylion · 1:32

@NiquaJ

I relate to this so hard because I'm always in environment and I find myself being like, I do not belong here. I want to be in my own space, minding my business, figuring that all out on myself too, just being in my own energy G. And I'm at that point where I'm starting to get to know myself more. And the more I get to know myself, the more I'm like, yeah, this is not the environment for me and I need to leave
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@NiquaJ
Niqua J
@NiquaJ · 4:48

#selfAwareness #mentalday

Nobody knows me. Nobody even started a conversation with me because I really wanted to just be alone. That's all it is. And I still feel that. I feel like this world is not for me. I feel like this road is not made for me. This world does not want to understand me. So I isolate myself from it. I pretty much go Mia included with my family, people that I used to talk to. I completely fell off the market
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@Pinkdandylion
Latoya Pride-Cook
@Pinkdandylion · 3:29

@NiquaJ

There's nothing wrong with being alone. And if you need that loan time to yourself to get your energy right, I totally understand that. I'm not going to tell you what to do, because that's not what I'm here for. I don't do that. I don't want anybody telling me what to do. But I just want you to know that I relate 100% to everything that you're saying
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@rocio
Rocío (Ro) Christensen
@rocio · 1:22
And it's just got me thinking about the things that we think we should do all the time, like this emerging concept of or not emerging. But this concept of self care, even like self care, is not always like a face mask and a bath. Sometimes self care is taking the year off to work on your own stuff and to forge the path in your own way. So I really appreciate that. I don't know that you bring this perspective and that you champion it so fiercely
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@rocio
Rocío (Ro) Christensen
@rocio · 0:35
Also, it is totally okay to not have answers and everything, but there's this tool that a lot of people in my life have used that has served them. I'm still sort of working through mine, but it's. It's the Icky guy. I'll attach the picture of what it is. It's a chart that you can fill out with a Venn diagram, with the things that you love, the things I the world needs. I'll just attach the chart
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