@Enfinit
Enfinit Evolushun
@Enfinit · 4:39

I’m no monster

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And yeah, I don't have anyone to lay my head on. I don't have a shoulder to cry on. And that has caused me to be tough. But now I feel soft again. I feel soft. I feel like I can relax and I'm in my own space and nobody can mess that up. And it's a crazy at first I didn't like it. It was lonely. And then I was like, wait a minute, that's not loneliness

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@FryedOreo
Dewuan .
@FryedOreo · 3:16
The first time I was in a relationship, then when I was out of it and I was alone, I finally lived on my own for the first time. Prior to that, I have always lived with my mother or with my kids mom. And when I got to be alone for the very first time was when I was living on my own. So that was very compounded and crazy
@DBPardes
Deborah Pardes
@DBPardes · 2:34

@FryedOreo @Enfinit

But I was just shocked by your title of this enfinit because I didn't know where that came from. If someone called you a monster, if you're feeling disconnected like a monster, I don't know. But you are an angel, not a monster. And yet I understand. Sometimes we feel so Frankenstein together with all the obligations we have, all the hearts that we've moved that are no longer in our path. It's weird
@Nouvelle
Nouvelle Love
@Nouvelle · 3:07

@Enfinit

And what that stage is, is that it's time for self reflection, self growth, self development. It's about self care. I was in that space as well. I've been single for quite some time now. And I would date women who would claim that they love me beyond to no avail, but they will have their ways about them that showed me that that completely wasn't true
@ZLisbon
Zara Lisbon
@ZLisbon · 3:23
And it's often a sign that the relationship is over when it's not feeling romantic anymore. And I always said, okay, this is a contradiction. How do we know if our relationship has stopped feeling romantic and it's a bad thing or it stopped feeling romantic and it's a normal, neutral, commonplace kind of thing typical of the course of a relationship. And what I think the difference is that even when it doesn't feel exciting romantic, it should still be in the category of romance
@Enfinit
Enfinit Evolushun
@Enfinit · 1:17

@ZLisbon

That romance that's there because she does things that are friendly. Okay. Like, she's my best friend. And my desire for that exciting romance, I had to put it on the back burner. I'm just like, wow, I didn't think about the things that she does do. And now I've got something else to think about. Wow. Thank you. Bye
@Enfinit
Enfinit Evolushun
@Enfinit · 0:53
Thank you all for your responses. Yeah, this is a crazy space. This is a crazy space. And everything that you guys said, ed helped out so much. Thank you so much. I've got a lot to think about now because I'm not in a bad place, though. I'm not in a bad place, but it's very uncomfortable, actually. It's scary how everything is going right. And all I wanted was someone to share this with, this space with
@Swell
Swell Team
@Swell · 0:15

Welcome to Swell!

@LaritaMotivates
LaRita Ferguson
@LaritaMotivates · 1:37
Just wanted to comment on your post. Hello. I feel like that's a great place to be in. You know, you're not lonely, but you realize what's for you and what's not for you and what you truly want. You're getting more tune with yourself
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