And most importantly to me is I love Jesus. I mean, I really do. And he says, walk in the light as we are in the light. Well, this early childhood trauma doesn't allow you to walk in the light. Orphan syndrome doesn't allow you to be all of you. There's so much shame and ick and yuck, but this transplant process is actually helping me to integrate that. And this week, I can see the changes and the growth