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Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 1:44

Into the Thought Contagion

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And in a situation like that, I want to know what each one of you does, what's your go to place, what's your go to thing to do? Does it ever feel like it's the end of the road for you? Have you ever gone through something close to borderline, suicidal or something like that? I'm just wondering, I'm just doing this a little research

#mentalhealth

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@DBPardes
Deborah Pardes
@DBPardes · 3:16

Grateful for your voice here 🙏 also tagging the wisdom of @Addicted

And what that is doing for me actually is allowing me to kind of drop into some serious language and around mental health by revisiting a book that I actually wrote. It doesn't mean that I understand how to not be sad, but it helps me feel safe in sadness. So if that audiobook helps you and anyone you're connecting with about this topic, and I know you're a practitioner
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 5:00

@DBPardes - Thank you 🙏🏼 Bless you.

And thankfully, you're adding the pages over the photos of the book that you're reading, and it was so helpful for me. A lot of things are really nice, nicely done, nicely, sort of felt a Catholic, and I saw some other topics being discussed, some when we're discussing parental negativity, something like that. And I saw some of the topics I've not been through all of them because it's either out here
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@kimestryarts
Kim M
@kimestryarts · 1:58

Adult coloring books and nature

So it's funny and it's just a nice stress reliever, and that's not to at all make light of what people are going through, because I know this is a challenging time for people, but that's just to say that those are some ways that I'm trying to find joy in the midst of of challenges, find places of peace and also finding the time to just honor how you're feeling and let it be. That's kind of been my approach
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 4:58

@kimestryarts - Thank you so much 🙏🏼

I'm not gonna lie. That is one of the most practical responses I've got in the past few months or so. Like last two months or so. They were really hellish for me, particularly going through some personal trauma and and some other stuff or everything is just kind of happening one by one, and it's just going against you. You just wonder sometimes what really is happening and you just go into this dark pit and you don't want to get out of it
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@kimestryarts
Kim M
@kimestryarts · 1:46

@Roomy-Thank you for your honesty and courage!

And I think it's very wise of you to reach out when you're feeling this way because some people don't have the courage to speak out when they're down. And I think it's really important to call upon the community, and I'm using the word community broadly and for all of us to work together and lean on each other and really see ourselves as being part of a global community
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 5:00

@kimestryarts - You humble me. 🙏🏼

And the reason why I can say all of these things is because sometimes when you're going through something, every single thing feels like the end of the world, it's just so exhausting. It kind of sucks the life out of you. It's like some Leech has stuck to your skin, and it's kind of sucking the blood out of your veins, and you can't just move anything. You look at things with a very cynical look
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@kimestryarts
Kim M
@kimestryarts · 0:03

https://s.swell.life/SSXPH7gIDbFXCkb

I'm just posting a link. Check it out
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 1:10

@kimestryarts

But I just want you guys to I'm fumbling right now with my words, even to just keep me in your prayers because I'm just walking on thin ice right now, and it's a slippery slope. And I have no idea what's going to happen over the next few hours or so. Maybe in the next minute. Even so, just keep me in your prayers. And that's all I'll ask of you. That is all. Thank you so much
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@DBPardes
Deborah Pardes
@DBPardes · 1:56

Sending you some charge for your battery @roomi 💪🏼♥️

Brandi nice to hear your deep thoughts. And Alan Watts is so powerful. Rumi, I've been thinking about you as we all have, and I hope you're hearing these voices of love come toward you. I was thinking about about the background image of your profile being 1% of a battery, and I think it's a profound image to project out, and I understand it
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 5:00

@DBPardes @Joylove and Kim GBY guys! LOVE YOU GUYS. ❤️‍🩹

I started going to therapy last year after getting hit by Covet and not being able to move back to England. So that was one of the biggest reasons why I was just going well with the therapy sessions, but sometimes therapy doesn't even help. And then there are lockdowns and obviously, you know, the nature of my job as well. So everything just kind of like I said before, sometimes you just need something to go your way so that you can feel better about yourself
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@bookishpodcast
Shahnaz Ahmed
@bookishpodcast · 4:59

@roomi

So many people died. Okay, back again. Focus. Let's keep going. And what I do is after I focus and somehow I'm able to empty my brain. Then I put in positive images, like, what do I want to see? And somehow I transcend and I take myself away from whatever h*** I'm living in or whatever definition of my house that I was living in on my stress. It's kind of like, okay, I wish I could be here
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@bookishpodcast
Shahnaz Ahmed
@bookishpodcast · 4:15

@roomi

Okay, where was I? I can't be concise. Can I? Yeah, just keep talking and talking. So the concept of why am I feeling this way? It's like so many people died. Well, could I have done something different and yes or no? Well, I couldn't or I could have. Okay, fine. I could have. But this happened under my watch. Well, in that case, it's a lesson learned
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 4:58

@bookishpodcast

It was a big turning point, obviously, but apart from that, there have been a lot of other things, and it's not my ICU shift. It's not my casualty shifts because I've been doing this for five years now, every single night and it goes on and on and on. So it's not like it's something new to me. I've been there before. I've done these things before. I've seen that every single day of my life as a doctor
@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 5:00

@bookishpodcast

At first, I thought it was just going to be some hoax or something to be told. That's what I thought about it. But I went into therapy. I made a conscious effort. I got better. So I tried fixing myself. You said one very important thing, and that was try and find the answers. Why? And trust me, Shahnaz, I cannot tell you why is the word why I'm actually feeling this way?
@bookishpodcast
Shahnaz Ahmed
@bookishpodcast · 1:17

@roomi

Hey, Rumi, I owe you an apology. I'm so sorry. I think asking you to look for the why was insensitive on my part. It showed a lack of listening on my part. And I apologize. And that's all I'll say about that, because I don't want this. Well, entry to be about me at all. This is not about me. This is about you. And I think what I'd like to do is just listen. Perhaps
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 5:00

@bookishpodcast - Oh no! That’s not what I meant.

The word why that you said was actually kind of like the catalyst for me. Go and say, there you go. She said it. And now I can maybe tell more openly that this is what is causing me problems, not my er duties, not my ICU shifts, not the daily debts and everything, not my transfer from here to there, not my being with friends and stuff
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 4:59

@bookishpodcast

I hope there's nothing in your head that you might think that he didn't like me saying that. No, it's not that. At least I can express my card. And you can hear it in my voice that it's not that. It's more like you giving me that option. You're giving me the boost to say, are you giving me those words? The word why itself was the word that actually made it so easy for me to say, oh, God
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@bookishpodcast
Shahnaz Ahmed
@bookishpodcast · 4:52

@roomi

But the reason I haven't been on for a bit is because I'm trying to get off a lot of, like, social media, just everything in general, because I have to finish this book manuscript, and it needs to get submitted by the end of this month. And to be very honest, I'm a little behind. I'll introlocatch up, and that is why I've been like, okay, swap cast. Okay. I'm just going to work on this book
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 4:57

@bookishpodcast

I mean, this is exactly what I was saying. Listening to other people's stories like Kim shared a motivational video and I watched it and I felt so calm. Brandy shared something that she talked about just all these vulnerabilities and how you can just be relatable in some sense. And even if you're just sharing your issues, it just helps the other person open up about their problems and they feel like they can actually talk about something as well on a platform like this
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 1:42

@Joylove - Thank you so much!

There was nothing so important in it, but sometimes it's nice to just have a conversation going on and other people get notifications, too. So yeah, I can understand. So I just wanted to make sure if you actually got the message or not because it was sent a few hours ago because I didn't see any response from you. So I thought perhaps I should ask thank you so much again for offering a helping hand. Shula, lean on
@bookishpodcast
Shahnaz Ahmed
@bookishpodcast · 4:20

@roomi

Sorry, that's my cuckoo clock in the background. But, you know, with that kind of a judgment thing, people hold things inside, and somehow it becomes this giant big thing of I'm the only one who has this pain. No one else does. No one else can understand this. And that's not true
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@kimestryarts
Kim M
@kimestryarts · 4:52

💜🙏🏾💜

I think yesterday I was talking to my boyfriend and he said it so, well, he's like, what difference does it make if you know someone or don't know someone, they're human beings, right. So we should just care about what's going on with other people. We should be able to reach out and say, I'm hurting. I need support and have that happen. I think it's a beautiful thing
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 4:54

🙏🏼🥺

And I'd be the first one to admit that. And I've done that. And I'm pretty sure everyone else would actually agree with me that these are interesting times and difficult, challenging times when you have to have a sense of compassion as well as security on the other side. I say security because a lot of people feel lonely. It's okay to feel lonely, but you don't have to stay lonely. It's the thing that I want to focus on
@bookishpodcast
Shahnaz Ahmed
@bookishpodcast · 3:18

@kimestryarts, @roomi

I stole a pencil when I was a child. Maybe that's what's causing it. We want to know cause and effect. And then he says, at the end, he goes, Sometimes there is no answer. It is not something you did that caused this. It's not about, oh, I'm a bad person. This happened. It's just a roll of the dice. It's probability and probability freaking sucks. But here we are. Glad you're doing better
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 4:59

@bookishpodcast

It just takes away everything from that person. And then when you have this experience, that better experience, that kind of makes you feel like I'm not going to invest myself in a relationship or anything of commitment or anything of that. So that's why I don't feel like setting up. I'm so sorry. That's a conversation that we'll have some other day on relationships and commitments. And why not? But I think friendships are really important
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@bookishpodcast
Shahnaz Ahmed
@bookishpodcast · 4:54

@roomi

I'm just telling you this from experience, and time is a healer. You just have to go through this Valley of pain and darkness. If that's what the relationship. If that's one of the factors that's causing you so much distress, the other thing is, as far as friends go and conversations go, we all every one of us needs some kind of a social interaction. And I don't know if I mentioned this in another swell to you
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 1:01

@bookishpodcast - Oh! WOW! 😍

Before I even begin to respond to this full submission of yours, I'm gonna say this one thing, and I'm going to say this. Let me say this. This a little confession of mine. I really wish you were my therapist. Come on. You are easily the funniest person. Sometimes you can be the funniest person. And you can really literally just lift someone's mood by just speaking and talking to them
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 4:56

@bookishpodcast - 💁🏻

If you remember the first time I actually came on Swell when I joined Swell and there was this post about stats and stuff like that. And if our stats important or not. And and there are some other social media posters that if I'm not wrong, I was very active there. I was very active and I was actively responding because I've kind of had this notion for so long that somehow we don't use the Internet, we abuse it
@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 4:59

@bookishpodcast

And you also see all sorts of malpractices in this part of the world. And if you like, I didn't become a doctor because of all of this, whatever that is happening. I mean, I didn't want to be a doctor because of that. And these are the things that bother you even more. You can ignore those things when things are actually going fine, but you can't ignore them when everything is just falling apart. So it was exactly like that
@Shaz
Shaz
@Shaz · 0:55

Hoping for better times..

Let's just hope for the best at this time. I guess I've been trying to be seen by putting myself into work a lot and keeping myself distracted and occupied enough. Yeah. Thank you so much for the boost
@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 4:59

@Shaz

You come across these people and you're like, they're my heroes in a way, because I want to do all of those things on a regular basis. Yes, they're my hobbies, but they are actually killing it in those things. And I am nowhere near them. So I want to be like them. And yet they have the time to actually come here and talk some sense into me. So I'll say the same to you
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@kimestryarts
Kim M
@kimestryarts · 1:04

Holding the space in gratitude

Hey, Roomi. Just a quick update. So last time I checked, there were more than 75 people who have prayed for you. And one of them, it wants you to know how much they appreciate you and the work that you are doing. And I just think it's amazing that everybody can come together and support each other in this way
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 5:00

@kimestryarts @kate - Thank you. bless you. 😇 🙏🏼

I'm not a person of faith, but that moved me in a way because nobody actually knows me, and somehow they still set a prayer for me for some reason. And like I said, I just came here thinking, okay, let's try this experiment. Let me do a litmus test
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@bookishpodcast
Shahnaz Ahmed
@bookishpodcast · 4:03

Courage!

And not only is it not healthy for us, we've created a society where people kind of don't share what's really deep within them. What's hurting if you're hurting, you just don't share it. And that's kind of a society we've created. And to show such vulnerability, it's really courage. It's courage to say, hey, I need help. It's courage to say, here's my hand. Please hold my hand. Pull me out of this
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@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 5:00

@kate - you have a beautiful heart! ❤️‍🔥

And I feel like I'm going to send you a message, by the way, just because you mentioned something about being in the clubhouse, and there was a session therapy session that you were taking. I don't know if you charged for it or not. I don't know anything. So I'm going to just be in your inbox. That's just a warning. I'm just giving you so thank you so much, Kate. Thank you. Thank you so much
@roomi
Roomi Tarik
@roomi · 4:56

@bookishpodcast - Hey you! 😍

So I'm just going to say this, that it's all because of you guys. Thank you. And especially you, because you are life are not siding sides. I'm not saying that this one is my favorite, and that isn't and not saying that no personal bias. But everyone knows that how much I appreciate you taking your time out and actually coming up here and speaking about certain things. So all the best with the book, and I can't wait for your book
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