Renee Slay
@Renee_Slay · 4:25
When I Was A Boy ~ poetry by Renee Slay ~ INSPIRED BY @geo_rhymes 4/28/23
So now maybe you agree that in my reality, a girl and a boy both were forced into existence. So my perspective might be different than those who didn't live it. Ever demanding insistence. So I might have knowledge and insight to assist in resolving the question ever persistent. And I can say that both are weighed down by expectations they deem unfair. And yet expectations remain resilient. Why do we all carry weight that doesn't resonate while lying? While living out roles and separating responsibilities?
Nidhin George 🔷
@geo_rhymes · 1:49
But the trauma, maybe the weight of those expectations and how they, you know, forced you into being or to doing something that you didn't fully resonate with, but you did it anyway for the recognition, the acceptance and perhaps even the love that came with doing it. I think you've captured, in a sense, much of the points of what it means to be a man or a woman or just being a human being, for that matter, right. Divided by gender
Renee Slay
@Renee_Slay · 3:18
But I hope you have that for you in your life because I know people will take advantage sometimes and maybe that's why I struggle so much with being seen as weak. I'm still working through my traumas, as you can tell. I'm working on building a better me and having to deal with a lot of that. So that's probably why that came out so quickly in that poem that started out, it was just going to be a poem about a man
Nidhin George 🔷
@geo_rhymes · 4:46
And while that's a wonderful ideal to strive towards too, and maybe in the next couple of decades this might become a norm, but at least for now, the challenges that I face around that is, particularly when it comes to relationships and things like that. And I don't mean to be judgmental or sexist here, but women love the idea that, you know, their men are able to open up and express and and all that
Renee Slay
@Renee_Slay · 4:48
And I have found that with me, whenever I can take something horrible that has happened to me and speak on it or write about it in poetry, that is a therapy that's healing me. But at the same time, I have people reach out all the time that are either in those situations or advocate for those situations. And I feel like I'm doing something. I feel like as long as my traumas have purpose that helps someone else, then it was worth it
Renee Slay
@Renee_Slay · 4:35
So still, I think the healing and the working on myself, that's going to be going on forever. There's a lot of trauma there so much so that I have put so much stuff out on this particular platform that going through my stuff. It would make one question, is this real? Like all this happened to one person? Yes, it did