So today is the start of my vacation. That is what I'm going to call it because I never really could afford the time or money to take a vacation. But now that I have been able to set it up to where I'm fine until my new job starts, I decided, you know what? I deserve a break. I deserve some time to just do whatever. Weekends never feel long enough for me to be able to get into a rhythm
Rose
@QuirkyAutist · 4:57
I feel like such an empty shell of a person because all of it was masking. So now I'm trying to figure out what music I like and it's quite an experience, I must tell you a lot of it. I have to just choose random playlists and let them play and just close my eyes and certain stuff hits me and other songs that I thought I liked. I really don't. I'm finding the same thing out for style and activities like crafts
Rose
@QuirkyAutist · 4:38
He's also very patient with me, which I have been through so many relationships, so many, and ultimately most of them, except for the few where they did cheat on me. Most of the relationships ended because I had a mental breakdown, or at least I thought it was. And I finally broke and went off about everything that was bothering me. And to think that if I had just known that I had autism, that I could have managed it better
It's not romantic. But this is actually the first time I've ever told anyone, let alone publicly, what my favorite flowers. So thank you for this opportunity, but also along the lines of feeling or hearing people say you smile too big or the emotion is too intense for the situation, et cetera. I've received the same things, and my perspective now is that what is wrong with intensity? What is wrong with feeling deeply? Excitement or sadness, grief or injustice?