@Mtwadamela
Mtwadamela Ijogo
@Mtwadamela · 0:36

Not doing good today

Good morning, swell community. This your boy entwal. And I'm not doing so great this morning. I got a good night's rest. I really don't mean to be complaining and b******* about life. That happens to pretty much things that happen to everybody. But I'm just not doing so great this morning feeling like a colossal f****** failure. And I'm it's just

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@Missy302
Missy 302
@Missy302 · 0:42
I hope your day gets a lot better and maybe try to get outside, get some sun. If it's sunny where you live, maybe do something to try to take your mind off things for a while. Hang in there
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@Phil
phil spade
@Phil · 0:12
Hey MTO I hope everything's alright I noticed you put this under family category so I sincerely hope everything is OK and sending positive vibes your way brother
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@Mtwadamela
Mtwadamela Ijogo
@Mtwadamela · 1:04
I'd probably be sitting in a d*** corner playing some d*** Blues records, drinking or something or smoking weed because I don't really drink. But I don't have that luxury to do that because I have a 15 year old here with me, and I have a daughter that I just met who needs me. So I don't have that luxury. But I thank you so much for the kind words and for the well wishes. Really appreciate it. I really do
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@Mtwadamela
Mtwadamela Ijogo
@Mtwadamela · 0:47
Hey, hey. Thanks a lot to Phil. No, I just. I put it under family because I really didn't know what category to put it under. So I just put it under, you know, whatever. What I felt was appropriate, but I'm just working on keeping myself together. It is what it is. There's nothing I can do about what happened. All I can do is move on and keep forging ahead. But I thank Missy
@Mtwadamela
Mtwadamela Ijogo
@Mtwadamela · 3:58
Thanks, you guys, for all those kind words. Merely human. And Robin, I mean, you guys are right, and I don't blame myself. But I do know that it takes two people. Anytime something goes wrong in a relationship, both people have to take responsibility in most cases unless it's just something really crazy. And this is one of those situations. And it's really the fact that okay, let me just throw this out there
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@Mtwadamela
Mtwadamela Ijogo
@Mtwadamela · 4:27
Somebody that you loved and you've been with and you've cared for for ten long years. And it wasn't all bad. Of course, I try to remember the good s***
@Wordsmith
Sreeja V
@Wordsmith · 0:42
I'm so I'm sorry you're going through this right now. I don't think you're wrong. Usually, when someone is feeling highly insecure in a relationship, nonissue start becoming issues and one after the other snowball into something that becomes larger than the relationship itself. Trust is the cornerstone of any relationship. As the Adage goes. And Privacy naturally cannot be taken for granted
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@Mtwadamela
Mtwadamela Ijogo
@Mtwadamela · 3:19
I'm like, what the h*** am I supposed to say that's a friend, she's not coming at me sideways or nothing. She just gave me a compliment. What do you want me to do? You should tell her you're with somebody. I mean, just irrational s*** that I just felt like, okay, now, every time you turn around, you're saying this makes me uncomfortable
@Missy302
Missy 302
@Missy302 · 1:30
So of course, you're going to have sad feelings and you're going to have guilt, feelings and all that that goes with it. But I think that you have to process them that just kind of will go away with in time. As far as the spy app on my phone. Yeah, for me, that would be all bets are off. That is above and beyond that's. Almost like putting a tracker on someone's car. The trust is either there or it's not
@Mtwadamela
Mtwadamela Ijogo
@Mtwadamela · 3:34
She had other symptoms from the stroke when she first got out of the hospital, like her liability, it was super bad. She would f****** laugh at s***. That was sad and be sad and s***. That was funny. It was totally reversed. But I saw that that was going away. And for the most part, it has. And so I thought to myself, Well, then this other thing will go away
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@Wordsmith
Sreeja V
@Wordsmith · 1:39
So happy to know that you were there for her when she needed you the most. And you've given her the best right in this relationship. And also. And if the insecurities kind of stemming from a medical condition, then we might just need to give her the benefit of the doubt. But also, as you said, we are all human at the end of the day
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@bookishpodcast
Shahnaz Ahmed
@bookishpodcast · 5:00
I've been through it. I've been through it to a point where I literally felt like I was going to throw up. That was the amount of pain I was going through. But it's just, however you respond to that pain, it's going to take time. First thing I will say is it's going to take time to heal. There were times when I thought I would never get over a certain person or whatever, and I've come to realize that time is a healer
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@Mtwadamela
Mtwadamela Ijogo
@Mtwadamela · 1:29
Well, you know, it's funny that both you bookish and you Robin has said, you know, but it is a fine line between that, because, I mean, I'm the type of guy that I just believe that a man's primary obligation is to protect his family, to defend and protect his family, even if he has to give his own life to do it. In that sense, I feel the same way if my wife was going somewhere
@Scottmark
Ifelowa Daribit
@Scottmark · 0:06
Oh, yes, I'm good in this group. I love it. Keep it up, right? Yeah
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