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jamie church
@jemecherche · 4:45

Morning Epiphany Part 3: withholding as a way of life, and my feelings after watching mom’s death process.

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I learned this if I wasn't exactly who she wanted me to be, or at least making my best approximation, she withheld affection, she withheld approval, she withheld love. And I mean, that's according to how she was raised. That's how you do it. But I just watched her on her deathbed for 22 days in the ICU, apologizing constantly that she was being, and I quote, so lazy. I'm just laying here

#trauma #coping #healing #withholding #deserving #IDeserveWholeness #hospital #cyclesofdespair #StreamOfConsciousness

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