Theresa found out about my adventures in the brothel during Fleet Week and decided that we were just a fling. No soulmate of hers would ever visit a brothel or entertain another girl. She was right to want better for herself. She wrapped us up as a fling and deservedly so. We became friends and emailed each other. The emotional openness was there. She even crafted her poem listing ten things I hate about Josh, including I hate that you hold on to girls the past too much
Josh Colon
@Gitdown · 2:20
No. Why would you even ask that? I said after she had asked if I was like my cousin J, I wimped out. She wasn't in the right place. Laced and recovering from her breakup. This was also right when my brother had just gotten locked up. She just couldn't handle anymore. And I couldn't risk getting kicked out without a job. Would she even do this? This was shattered. All I built of myself in the military
Deborah Pardes
@DBPardes · 1:24
Hey, Josh. I love this hybrid of spoken word and poetry and then your own, like, breaking the fourth wall and saying hi. Your voice is so authentic and raw and also, just as a boy, like a resilience, that you are where you are and you're exploring it and you're celebrating it
Josh Colon
@Gitdown · 2:20
I'm not sure Bill Clinton did the right thing by implementing don't ask, don't tell where they're not allowed to ask you, Greg, and you're not supposed to tell. I think for me it was bad because it took that much longer for me to realize who I was and what I was comfortable with. But this last story just shows that it wasn't just the military. It was also my family. It was also being brought up Catholic
Josh Colon
@Gitdown · 5:00
Disguise would open up and I would pride in like a hot night through butter. It's not like the movies, or at least it wasn't like that for me. The sex I had with the girl in the barracks in Japan was more performative. It was proof of my straightness, something everybody celebrated. The opportunity presented itself, and it happened
Josh Colon
@Gitdown · 5:00
I didn't let anything get to me and just laughed it off. Theresa took me out in my last few nights in Guam. We got a hotel and went bar hopping. She took me to Viking strip club where everybody knew my name. Once the dancers found out that it was my last night they pulled me on stage and had me do a trick on the pole. Then they took me to the back where they signed a Viking surf for me. And then they made me take shots
Josh Colon
@Gitdown · 2:50
All right. I'm sorry this is long, I apologize. But where I left off, I got back and Theresa was p***. I thought you wanted to come here. What I wanted was to be in a room full of beautiful women and for me to be the only one you paid attention to. It was a test that I failed. We had a nice, intimate night together. This would have been a great way to end things
Steve Prudhomme
@Sabastian · 0:35
Hey, Ma'am, thanks for sharing that. I love the openness aspect. The ten things I hate about Josh. Oh, my when we meet people and they love us, they lose a bit of themselves is in us. And so that openness, that creates a dialogue is a true form well, a true form of brilliance in my mind. I call our life experiences written dialogue for a reason. I and you just captured it, so thanks for sharing that with us. That's brilliant